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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 6, 2007 11:19:46 GMT -5
It might have been 20 years but this memorie still haunts her. It has been haunting her since it happened. Her eyes faintly pasted each grave, reading everything. So many lost and never refound, she thought. She felt pain looking down to her parents grave."20 years have pasted you guys."she said almost as if she where speeking to them."you've missed so much.." she carried on."I wish you were still here." She sighed how could she not forget her own parents after 20 years. Tho it was only a day ago that she remembered about their deaths.
She wiped a tear from her eye as another streamed down her face."I've grown up a lot and everythings really changed."she said sighing.She remembered visting here all the time. Why did I stop? She asked herself. She remembered her last day back here. She had been talking about her big adventure since they left, leaving out the part about her sister." There is something I should have told you.."she said as her voice started to fainten out." Christy's dead,","even tho it's been 20 years from her death I didn't tell you till now."she said as more tears rolled down her face."I'm sorry."she said as she looked right at their graves. She only wished they could hear her. Her sorries her wishes, everything but nothing would be heard.
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Post by Phoebe Halliwell on Apr 6, 2007 19:05:29 GMT -5
It was heard, but not by Billie's parents. Phoebe listened to Billie's words and casted her eyes downwards, feeling tears in them. Silently, slowly, she walked to Billie. Billie had been in so many of the sister's troubles, helped with each one of them (well with the exception of the Christy incident) and been through so much with them, she was nothing less that one of the sister's her self. The only difference was, she wasn't part of the Power of Three. She looked at Billie, who's blonde hair and grown past her shoulders now. So much had changed, everyone had moved on but Billie clung on to her parents. She decided to make her presence known. "Billie..."
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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 6, 2007 23:40:37 GMT -5
Billie jumped at a noise as she lifted her head.She thought it might be someone, someone else, but only to be found it was Phoebe, she wiped the tears from her eyes, "Oh hey Phoebe."she said trying to act happy but only to be found sad. She looked at Phoebe as she thought , Phoebe had moved on through so many things, deaths and every thing. But why? Why do I still cling on to my past? Her pasted, her pasted that filled with nothing but sadness. Sadness that could never be healed so long as she could live.She wondered if Phoebe had been listening for she saw that she might be crying too.
Had she heard her or was she just crying about something else?
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Post by Phoebe Halliwell on Apr 7, 2007 0:12:46 GMT -5
Phoebe watched Billie trying to hide her tears and smile but knew it was false. "Billie, you have to let go," she said gently. With her empathy, Phoebe could feel everything Billie was feeling and it was horrible. "You won't be on your own, you have a family now," she continued. Billie knew she had support of other's, why was she resisting so much?
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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 7, 2007 0:42:51 GMT -5
Let go of her parents, she wouldn't she couldn't. "I know but they were my parents."she said,"How could I let go of my parents?"she asked Phoebe, as tears streamed down her face like rain. Falling fast as more tears streamed out. There was no way no how she could let go of her parents. How could she let go of the people who had loved her and cared her. The last day they spent together, then they died. She couldn't stop thinking of them, think about them when they where alive, the last days together ment so much to her. She couldn't forget all of that... never.
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Post by Phoebe Halliwell on Apr 7, 2007 0:53:14 GMT -5
"Billie I lost my mom too at a young age. I couldn't remember her, but Prue did. And Prue let go. I let go of my grandmother. Paige let go of her Parents. You have to do it," said Phoebe. She had to admit to herself, she couldn't understand how until this day, Billie didn't ever accept it. "I don't mean to sound horrible, but Billie they're dead. They're gone, and they're not coming back." Phoebe had to have a talk to Paige and Piper about this. They had talked about it, alot and Piper actually suggested a spell, but Phoebe wasn't too keen on it. But she was starting to see Piper's point.
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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 7, 2007 1:04:34 GMT -5
She was right but she didn't want her to be right. She wanted them back so badly."your right.."she said ,"but why is it so hard to forget them and move on?"she asked Phoebe who really had a lot of deaths in her life.She leaned down to the ground on to the grass looking down crying. The tears hit each grass as the tear slid off into the ground , turning back to their graves. she slid her hand on her moms." mom.." she muttered silently. Then ran her hand across her dads."dad."She also said silently."I'm sorry ."she said as she got up wiping the tears from her eyes.
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Post by Phoebe Halliwell on Apr 7, 2007 9:42:14 GMT -5
"Because," said Phoebe, watching Billie's actions. "You feel guilty. And you really need to get rid of that guilt." She seriously couldn't understand it. Even in great guilt, Paige had moved on. Maybe, it was a weakness of Billie's? She couldn't move on? She sighed heavliy. Piper or Paige would understand it better- Phoebe was better at just comforting her. "You believe that you can't let go, because they are your parents. You have to believe, that you can let go, even though you'll always love them."
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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 7, 2007 12:27:00 GMT -5
A tear streamed down her face.She couldn't let them go like she let go of her sister. Her sister her sister that made this happen, all because of the people thought her parents where getting in the way. She walked in on them as they both where dead. Another tear streamed down her face."But I can't. When I try it just keeps coming back at me."she said wiping the water tears from her eyes. Maybe Phoebe was right ,she should just try to forget them just another try. She sighed.
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Post by Phoebe Halliwell on Apr 7, 2007 12:45:38 GMT -5
"Well stop saying you can't. You can," said Phoebe. Her voice shook ever so slightly as she said the next part, "I did with Prue."
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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 7, 2007 15:28:20 GMT -5
"Maybe,"she said ever so faintly,"maybe your right."she said as she stoped. she shook her head as she sighed. "I,"she said,"I better go now."she said pushing back her long blond hair. She walked pasted Phoebe wiping tears from her eyes. She rushed to the exit of the cemetary turning back seeing Phoebe."or maybe your wronge."she said sighing.
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Post by Phoebe Halliwell on Apr 7, 2007 18:03:59 GMT -5
"Billie," said Phoebe, following her. She wasn't going to let Billie leave just yet. "I'm right. It's life, and I know better than most people about emotions." Being an empath, it was true. Phoebe knew a great deal about this stuff considering the amount of innocents they had. "You of all people know that."
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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 7, 2007 18:22:35 GMT -5
She sighed,"Its just so hard for me to let go of my parents."she said looking at Phoebe."I know all that stuff its just hard."She had finally stoped the very sad voice and was talking normaly, tho you could still sence the sadness in her voice, it wasn't hard to miss. Missing, that brings up something to think about. She's missing a piece of her heart that piece went down with her parents death, and this is why she is so sad. She took a deep breath thinking about that.
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Post by Phoebe Halliwell on Apr 7, 2007 18:53:19 GMT -5
"You have to." Phoebe deeply wished Billie could just return to her happy self. Twenty years passed. She didn't mean thinking this as an insult, but who held on for so long? Who could?. She really wished Piper of Paige could be there, she really didn't know too well what to say. She had given advise, what was left, really?
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Post by Billie Jenkins on Apr 7, 2007 19:02:17 GMT -5
She sighed"your right,"she took deep breath trying to let go, as memories sweeped out of her mind each memorie of them. The way they always acted the way they loved to the way they were. She sighed forgetting them. Forgetting them all of them. She sighed crying, then stopping , they'er gone she admited it They're gone forever. A tear rolled down her face as she let go of her pasted. She looked up at Phoebe, slightly smiling.
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