Feeling Lost (Trixie)

[Rowan Angelark]

(OOC: Continued from "Up Top")

Rowan orbed into the Cemetery. He needed to find somewhere to relax and let out some of his stress. He just left the bridge. He was upset with himself. He had kissed Trixie. He had let her know how he felt about her.

He knew they couldn't be together. He was light and she was darkness. He was good and she was evil. Rowan felt torn. If the Charmed Ones knew what was going on, he would surely have to explain himself to them. And he didn't feel like getting a lecture from them.

Rowan was on his knees, infront of his father's grave. Tears ran down his face as he replayed the moment that had just happened. "What I have done?" He asked himself. "We can't be together." He said. "It'll never work out." He told himself. "What were you thinking?"

[Trixie Delacour]

Trixie silently appeared in the cemetery in a cloud of smoke. She watched Rowan as she kneeled in front of his father's grave a cried. She listened to his words before finally stepping out of the darkness.

"You were thinking the same thing I was," she said walking towards him. "You were thinking that as impossible as it may seem, you can't help who you fall in love with." As soon as she said those words it was like a weight has been lifted off of her shoulders. She didn't regret saying it as she thought she would. In fact she was glad it was out in the open.

[Rowan Angelark]

Rowan didn't look to Trixie as he listened to her words. After she had finished speaking, Rowan looked over to her, his hazel eyes glazed over in tears. He stood up and watched Trixie approach him. Rowan couldn't believe those words left her lips. Rowan couldn't help but look into Trixie's beautiful eyes. He laughed at himself as he wiped his tears away.

"I'm such a wuss right now." He said.

[Trixie Delacour]

"Yeah you kind of are but that's besides the point," she said laughing. "Besides what else is new?" she teased. She took her thumb and wiped away the rest of the tears that streamed down his face.

She took a deep breath and ran her fingers through her hair. "So....what now?" she asked. Now that everything was out in the open they had to figure out what to do.

[Rowan Angelark]

Rowan laughed along with Trixie. She had always found a way to cheer him up. Rowan couldn't help but laugh as she teased him. Rowan realized how soft her touch was as she gently wiped his tears away. He had listened to her question. "I don't know." He answered.

Rowan placed his arms around her waist and kissed her. He pulled away and looked into her eyes. "I'm sorry, I couldn't resist it." He apologized. "You're just so damn sexy, It's not evne funny."

[Trixie Delacour]

Trixie laughed. When he had kissed her she felt a shock. She'd always thought it was corny when people said that they felt and saw fireworks when they kissed certain people but now she understood why. "Well thank you. You're not too bad yourself you know."

She smiled and then her smile disappeared. "You know we can't tell anyone about us. I mean if there is an us."

[Rowan Angelark]

Rowan held her close. "I know." Rowan said. He continued to look into her eyes. "I wish it wouldn't have to be like this, but yeah, I know." He said. He gently stroked her cheek. "There's an us." He told her.

[Trixie Delacour]

Trixie broke away from him. "If anyone ever found out, we'd be killed. They'd send a darklighter after you and the source would kill me. Of course that's if the Charmed Ones don't get to me first and the Elders don't get to you first."

Trixie looked around cautiously. "It might not even be safe for us to be seen together. At least not here."

[Rowan Angelark]

Rowan gently took her arm. "I know." Rowan told her. "But I don't care about the Elders." Rowan said. "They can kiss my hybrid ass." Rowan exclaimed. "Nothing is going to stop me from loving you." He told her. "Nothing." He added.

Rowan looked around. "You're right, Demons love to gather here." Rowan said. "Maybe we should go somewhere else." He suggested.

[Trixie Delacour]

Trixie laughed,"Well you do have a rebellious side don't you. Funny I never pictured you as the rebellious type." She laughed again and then stopped.

Her heightened senses kicked in and she whirled around. "Well, well, well what do we have here," came a voice. Suddenly a demon became visible. "I didn't think it was possible for Trixie, princess of the furies, to actually be with a whitelighter."

"Kanaan," Trixie said taken aback.

"The one and only. Oh won't the Source be pleased with this bit of information," Kanaan said.

"You will not mention this to Co....the Source," Trixie said catching herself before she let Cole's name slip from her mouth. No one but the underworld knew of Cole's return as the Source.

"Oh and who's going to stop me? Not you. You've grown weak Trixie."

"No I haven't," Trixie said. She hated when anyone tried to undermine her power. She walked over to him and moved her hand in a choking motion. Even though she wasn't touching him, Trixie's power of strangulation caused him to start choking. He fell to his knees. Trixie let go then stood over him. Smoke started to form around him and Kanaan became overwhelmed with the voices of people he'd tortured and killed in the past. She screamed in agony until his body burst into flames.

[Rowan Angelark]

"Of course I do." Rowan said. "Who doesn't?" He asked, smiling. Rowan watched as the whole scene went on. She had strangled him. It reminded him of the last time he used that power. That was another side of him though.

A side he wanted to forget. A side which had almost destroyed him. Luckly, a family friend was able to block this side. "Let's get out of her." Rowan said.

[Trixie Delacour]

Trixie turned around to face him.She nodded. She wondered what he thought about whaat he just did. She wondered how he felt actually seeing her evil side first hand. He'd never actually seen that side of her. Of course this would be the last time. Evil was aparto f her and she couldn't help that nor did she want to.

[Rowan Angelark]

Rowan held onto her hand tight. He held her closer before orbing out.